Back In It!
Wow, wow, wow... It's been almost exactly a year since I last posted (oops!) Soooooo, I figure a decent explanation for my going "radio silent" is in order.
Alright! *rubs hands together* Here's my confession: I am (just a bit) attention-hungry, so I was getting a wee bit discouraged at how my blog was receiving very little attention. I also happen to be (just a bit) lazy , so I found striving to get just one blog post pumped out a week a stretch of my meager energies and willpower. Additionally, I was disappointed that few people seemed interested in joining me in fulfilling my Mission Statement (laid out in my About Tab). Finally, I was full of self-doubt, regarding my writing ability as well as the value of what I had to contribute.
In short, it seemed that what I had to offer was too immature, and not very interesting.
At the time, I didn't feel there was anything I could do to fix these problems. So instead, I just gave up (my laziness thanked me, my attention cravings scolded me) Next thing you know, a year had passed!
It wasn't until I was filling out an application for a writing tutor position and contemplating my past writing experience that I thought of this blog. I decided to give it a visit, and see what I thought of it now.
As I read my old posts, I felt the urge to start writing and publishing on it again. So I started this post, as a way to process what insights the last year has brought.
I believe that taking the year off, unplanned or not, was a good thing. I realize now that I was trying to make this blog my identity, and as a child of God, I am not supposed to be defined by something so small-minded.
Instead, this blog should be an reflection of the beauty and truth that God has blessed me with through my American Life and Chinese Heritage.
I'm not perfect, in fact, at times my own worst hypocrite. So I probably will still struggle with wanting more attention than I get, or to write a post every week, or self-doubt.
Even so, I still want to share using this blog. And I hope that it will serve both me and others. Therefore, I intend to hang in there.
Hope you feel inclined to hang in there with me!
Alright! *rubs hands together* Here's my confession: I am (just a bit) attention-hungry, so I was getting a wee bit discouraged at how my blog was receiving very little attention. I also happen to be (just a bit) lazy , so I found striving to get just one blog post pumped out a week a stretch of my meager energies and willpower. Additionally, I was disappointed that few people seemed interested in joining me in fulfilling my Mission Statement (laid out in my About Tab). Finally, I was full of self-doubt, regarding my writing ability as well as the value of what I had to contribute.
In short, it seemed that what I had to offer was too immature, and not very interesting.
At the time, I didn't feel there was anything I could do to fix these problems. So instead, I just gave up (my laziness thanked me, my attention cravings scolded me) Next thing you know, a year had passed!
It wasn't until I was filling out an application for a writing tutor position and contemplating my past writing experience that I thought of this blog. I decided to give it a visit, and see what I thought of it now.
As I read my old posts, I felt the urge to start writing and publishing on it again. So I started this post, as a way to process what insights the last year has brought.
I believe that taking the year off, unplanned or not, was a good thing. I realize now that I was trying to make this blog my identity, and as a child of God, I am not supposed to be defined by something so small-minded.
Instead, this blog should be an reflection of the beauty and truth that God has blessed me with through my American Life and Chinese Heritage.
I'm not perfect, in fact, at times my own worst hypocrite. So I probably will still struggle with wanting more attention than I get, or to write a post every week, or self-doubt.
Even so, I still want to share using this blog. And I hope that it will serve both me and others. Therefore, I intend to hang in there.
Hope you feel inclined to hang in there with me!
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